Ive waited forever and day
To be here beside you tonight again
Everyone one thinks Im crazy, but I wont give in
My entire life belongs to you now
Ill stay here forever, Ill stand by your side
Through the years I have waited to give my love to you
Many days I would bleed, lost in your gaze
I couldnt tell you, but I need you to know
You are everything that keeps me alive
The one thing that makes my heart beat
I would have ended it so long ago
But you have saved my soul
I dont want you to ever go
I finally hold you in my embrace
The days go by faster than the blink of an eye
I want you to
Sitting here in my room alone
Dont know why I do
I dont know why I stay
But all I can say is
I can only draw regret
From knowing who you are
From knowing what youve done
I dont know why I stay
Or why Im drawn back to you
I wish this was the last time
You would let me go
Let me go
[Chorus]
How could you deceive me
I dont know
And how could you beat me down
I dont know
The scars will never fade
The marks upon my flesh
Tell the story
How could they let this go on
How could you be so cruel
To a breathing, living thing
I wish this was the last time
You would let me go
Let me go
(W
Let the fires burn
Let the fires inside my body burn
The fire cleanses my lungs
I can now breathe once more
Tasting the air
Let the waters engulf me
Let the dark waters cover me
From head to toe
Drown and die to be reborn again
Pure and new
Let the darkness in all around me
Let the darkness embrace me
Black tendrils cover my body
Destroying all the life inside
Once more I die
Breathe your life into my body
Breathe life into me once again
I rise from the grave
Your taste upon my lips
I will savor it and never forget
Stop to listen to the trees giving all their wisdom to me
I dont know why, the feel my emptiness inside
Crawl among all the roses, cut me deep, my soul is bleeding
Ghosts haunting me, there are sounds I cant see
Dead, decaying in my room, everything has turned to ash except for you
In my hands I hold your bones, I now cry alone
In the shadows my tears fall, recall your words to make me better
In this empty place, with all the memories we made
I can feel you in my head, your ghost hasnt left me and youre dead
The pain I bear makes my soul numb
This world is so empty without your smile to break the darkness
Em
Open the door to let the light in
Ive been scared for so long
Bleeding and dying from the nightmares of you
Breathe, breathe I must
Remove yourself from my presence
I dont want you anymore
Tortured and scarred night after night
One more night and Ill leave this world forever
I wont run back to you
Just leave me
Dont keep hurting me
I cant let the torment go on
I dont love you anymore
So please leave me alone
Your shadow hangs over me like a cloud all day
Keeping out all the light
I lie here restless in your arms
I cant breathe anymore
I wont run back to you
Just leave me
Trapped, wasted now
Time seems to stop
An arrow, poisons the soul
Left alone
The signs are real
You got your wish
Now face the saints
They say time, heals all wounds
Recollection others sins
It adds to our anger
We hate what is good
The rusty arrow, poisons the soul
Left alone
The signs are real
You got your wish
Now face the saints
Wish to see, your sins revealed
The world knowing your faults?
Then shut up about others wrongs
Left alone
The signs are real
You got your wish
Now face the saints
Poison the soul again
Poison the soul again
Poison the soul again
Poison the soul again
Trapped inside your sins
Time c
Die!
Believe in nothing more
Ive bled and opened up
Feel your way along the ground
Ive bled and opened up
The world is turning red
Sacrifice myself no more
The innocent are bled
And I have opened up
Send me underground
Locked up in a cage
There is nothing left in this prison of flesh and bone
Ive bled and opened up
Lay dying in the dark
The thoughts drained from your mind
Eye just staring back at nothing
The innocent are bled
And I have opened up
Ill grab your hand and pull you up
No more self-sacrifice, you dear, sweet little thing
We could have it all and let them rot inside
Or sacrifice ourselve
Watch me as I fall
You take my breath away whenever you call
Led into darkness and fear
The night and black are the rulers here
These shadows make me hide away, so scared
I cant see through the black, like a thick cloud of fog
Please dont let go
Hold on tighter, dont let go, my dear
The night will be sure to claim us in here
Watch as black tendrils creep around us like flame
There is no way to avoid the pain
So hold on tighter, my dear, dont let go
Here is where dark storm clouds stay
Striking out at the innocent, blinded by rage
A voice is telling them all to step out into the rain
So the black can cons
How can I gaze into eyes so full of love?
The darkness in the light making my blood run
On another plain
My spirit sleeping in the cold
Feel it creep into my mind
The need to take my life
I hate the blood
Running through my veins
I must wake up
Stop myself from
Taking the only thing keeping me on my feet
I cant give up
Let myself fall asleep
I must stand up
Stop myself from
Taking the only thing thats keeping me alive
Now Im on my way
To wake myself from the dream
Flee the scenes of my soul
Keeping me asleep
Bring me to a new home
I hate the blood
Running through my veins
I must w
Darkness fills your mind,
Clouding your thinking,
Leaving you behind,
You cant remember things youve done,
Cant undo whats already been done.
You feel so empty inside,
Deserted, left alone here to die,
In a vast wasteland of misery,
Its becoming hard for you to breathe.
Feel terror constrict your throat,
A rising memory appears untold,
A forgotten sin reappears,
You remember your forgotten fears.
[Pre-chorus:]
And now you have to find out,
How live through this without any doubts,
You cant undo whats already been done,
Why dont you give into the Son?
[Chorus:]
Living life with
The Ultimate Heartbreak by AldertheWarrior, literature
Literature
The Ultimate Heartbreak
I gave up on loving you long ago,
Because I dont know how to sew,
Up these pieces you left me with,
A shattered heart is what you leave me.
You dont even care,
All you can do is stare,
Give me a hateful glare,
Clinging to your new lovers arm over there.
The pictures of you hanging on my wall,
I really should rip them off,
But I cant bear to take them down,
You were always there to put me down.
Im letting my hate for you well up,
Until it bursts and I can finally give up,
On living in this life,
I really just want to end my life.
[Pre-chorus:]
And I really want to let it go,
Lose my mind, lose my
[Chorus:]
God dont let me fall down,
Pick me up and show me how,
I want to know You,
I want to touch You.
God please help me up right now,
Take me and spin me around,
In the direction,
I want perfection,
Now
A kid left alone to fend for himself,
Just flesh and bones,
No friends or family,
They all seem to retreat.
He walks that lonely road,
A scarred path that many know,
His heart broken in two,
Sewed up with help from You.
His life destroyed by the past,
Redemption closes in at last,
To take him far away,
From this place of pain.
[Chorus:]
God dont let me fall down,
Pick me up and show me how,
I want to k
Hatred is a poison in my veins,
Glazing my eyes, making me insane,
Feel the darkness engulfing me,
Making it hard to see or breathe.
That black cloud envelopes me,
Hatred, my number one source of energy,
Like a drug addiction that cannot be stopped,
My brain slows down to drop dead halt.
[Chorus:]
Hatred is my number one enemy,
Hatred is ultimate energy,
Hatred completely envelopes me,
Hatred is powerful energy.
Fear drives hard and fast,
Blinding you, making you an outcast,
The only thing keeping you alive,
Is the fear to die.
We have nowhere to go,
Our energy is outta control,
Even if we lived in deep dark caves,
That a
When I Think About You by AldertheWarrior, literature
Literature
When I Think About You
They say were to young,
Dont know what true love is,
We jump in so deep when relationships are so incomplete.
The darker corridors of our mind,
Are telling us to leave it all behind,
The risk is probably to great,
Its not intertwined with our fate.
But then I think about us,
The smiles and laughs you bring,
I drop it all and take your hand,
Lets make us complete cuz
[Chorus:]
Im gonna grow wings and fly home to you,
Sit on your front porch and play around with you,
Wrap you in a hug and never let go,
This is the way I feel about you so,
Im gonna kiss you in a field in the moonlight,
H
Yeah
Youre the thorn in my side,
The mortal wound I cannot hide,
A sensual addiction so sweet,
Like two lovers falling asleep.
I sit alone in the dark,
Nightmares plaguing my every thought,
Youre there stalking me,
Ever persistent, pushing me into the dark.
[Chorus:]
Youre my only, number one obsession,
The drug addiction that destroys perfection,
A cancer rotting in my brain,
The only thing that used to keep me sane.
Youre my only, favorite obsession,
The poison in my veins that halts my confession,
The object that rotted my heart away,
My obsession keeps me insane,
It keeps me insane.
To explore t
I regret I didnt get to spend more time with you,
Caught up in this crazy world I forgot you,
And then a tragedy struck,
Your life was ended by a truck,
I was left here in shock,
To pick up the pieces I forgot,
Living a life full of regret,
Im scared to ask for forgiveness just yet.
But I hear a voice calling out to me,
It says you havent forgotten me,
Youll always love me forever and more,
Its time to start over, open a new door.
[Chorus:]
Moving on is harder than I thought,
All I used to think of is all for naught,
Dreams are shattered now,
Scattered on the floor,
The purpose of my life is no m
I need an escape, a lovely escape,
Imprisoned in a body that I hate,
I feel so lost,
I am no longer myself,
A monster spawned from the depths of Hell.
I need an escape, a lovely escape,
Someone to unseal my fate,
Bloody hands reach out to me,
Taking all my energy.
[Chorus:]
I need an escape, take me away from this place,
I am no longer myself, Ive sent other to burn in Hell,
Please stop me, save me from myself,
I hurt those I love most,
Becoming something I hate,
A monster from Hells Gate,
Break the chains, set my soul free,
Somebody, please, help me!
Striking out without a thought,
Then hiding so as not to get
I walk through a valley of death,
My loyal companions all I have left,
They all be very few,
But they will not abandon you.
Their shields be strong,
Eight guardians in all,
Marked against society,
They now walk through this shadow with me.
[Chorus:]
Whose gonna hide you when the world starts to crumble?
Who will pick you up after you stumble?
Who is gonna be by your side when you feel the need to suddenly cry?
Are your friends going to help you with your troubles,
Or stab you in the back later when they have their own troubles?
Your ultimate companions are among the angels,
Among the angels, among the angels.
Beaten down to th
We are the next generation,
Flawed by our own misconception,
Of the human race and life,
We need to look at the world and all its strife.
A flame dwells within us all,
Flickering off the walls of the prison our souls live in,
Misguided through our countless sins.
[Pre-chorus:]
So lets break the chains,
Let the light shine in,
Life our hands high,
And shout out our war cry!
[Chorus:]
Were the radicals of the future,
United by the flame,
Were gonna take the world and shake it,
Try hard to wake it,
From the coma its been in,
They all gave in to sin.
We are the youth united,
Taken in by a powerful
I Hate Valentine Day Parties by AldertheWarrior, literature
Literature
I Hate Valentine Day Parties
I feel the same, still feel the old pain,
Hoping one day you'll notice me,
But I'm about to find out just what youre all about,
And now I feel like I'm slowly drowning.
You walk through the marketplace holding his hand,
I feel left alone in the cold, cold winter snow,
Is this what Valentines day is all about?
Broken hearts and tears,
I stay up late because of my fears,
Why should I care about today?
I've already given my heart away,
So why should I care about Valentines day?
You sit there, holding onto something you find dear,
Why should you pick him, when you could pick me instead?
I feel kind of let down, is that what Va
Current Residence: Hiding in your bedroom waiting for you to fall asleep... Favourite genre of music: Nu metal - alternative rock/metal Favourite photographer: Patrick Riley Favourite style of art: Anime MP3 player of choice: Zune Favourite cartoon character: Zuko Personal Quote: Give girls flowers and love, feed them poetry and chocolate.
Favourite Visual Artist
ChibiWolvey
Favourite Movies
Taken
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Tie up between Evanescence and Red
Favourite Writers
Other than myself? Definitely Jon Foreman
Favourite Games
Guitar Hero World Tour - Rock Band - S.S.B.B. - Halo - Final Fantasy - Dynasty Warriors
Favourite Gaming Platform
Wii
Tools of the Trade
Computer - Pencil - Dictionaries - Paper - Guitar - Music - Inspiration
Other Interests
Writing - Music - Internet - Walking through the woods - Being Emo and in Love - Vampires
Oh my gosh, what a hectic few months it has been. I decided that instead of running off to college to get a degree that I don't want or will ever use I have been spending every ounce of my being in writing a novel. I won't give away any secrets, but I finished the first main draft of it and now I am doing my second draft process. I would say I'm a third of the way through the second draft. I decided that after my second draft I'm going to have my friends read the book and give me some suggestions. By the end of it all I should have three drafts of this sucker done and then off to the publishing companies she will go. I am hoping *crosses fing
Well, in short, this is probably going to turn into a rant.
I am bored out of my mind. I also think I caught a stomach virus last night and I feel really sick. I've already thrown up once last night and as soon as I got up this morning. One of my friends dragged me out last night to help him ask a girl out to prom, which I helped with, being the good, guillable person I am. Of course, I was ignored for the rest of the evening, but that was expected. The thing that annoys the crap outta me is I didn't get so much as a 'thanks for helping', considering he was really nervous and I coached him through it. That, and another friend of mine is in a
Well, a very happy, very late new year to you all.
I have been gone for awhile due to the fact that I have had a girlfriend since Christmas and literally spend all my time with her. On another note, I am trying to be more busy than I already am with work, girlfriend, family, and life in general!
I have started to reconstruct an old board of mine called the Myths of Redwall: http://z7.invisionfree.com/Skippers_Holt_2/index.php?
I am helping a friend create a board (still in the works): http://z8.invisionfree.com/Avion/index.php?
Also, I will be posting up a few more songs rather soon.
Songs of the Chronicles:
Intro - http://alderthewarri
Hi! I just wanted to let you know how much I love you for watching me! You re-watched me just shortly after you started watching me, and that made a huge impact on my life. I'm so happy we're still friends, and I'm so happy you're my watcher.